Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Pandang itu bukan lihat.

semekum. aku ade seorang kawan. die nie agak baik la ngan aku. kitorang kawan baik walaupun kitorang masing-masing pernah buat jahat dalam mase kitorang bernyawa ni. die suke layan aku sembang, dan kitorang boleh sembang macam-macam hal. selalunye mesti x dapat kesimpulan. pergh..buat penat je borak lame2. tapi tu memang tabiat manusia kan. dapat plak yang side2 beriklim khatulistiwa nie. so ari 2 aku sembang ngan die pasal life die. saje je. sebab aku memang jenis yang suke provoke orang. nak tengok macam mane orang2 nie defend diri ataupun hanyut dengan provokasi yang aku mainkan. bukan bende serius pun, biase2 je. aku tanye kat die,
aku : eh, asal farah couple ngn haris? ok ke mamat 2?
die : asalnye diorang main2 je. ntah mcm mane sangkut plak. tapi aku tgk haris 2 baik la.
aku : kenape ko kate die baik?
die : hmm baik la, die bukan macam kite, x suke kuar malam, ckp macam sopan je, rokok pun die x hisap.
aku : maknenye kalau x hisap rokok, kuar malam, kire baik la. senangnye.
die : bukan macam 2, tapi die nampak sopan, aku rase x pernah dgr die mencarut lagi.
aku : abis 2, yang mencarut 2 jahat la, ko tau x makne jahat ngan baik nie, sedar x sebenarnye 2 words nie berat beb. bukan blh pakai mcm 2 je. ko pun bkn kenal die sgt. aku x kate die jahat, tapi judgement ko 2 ringkas abis. mata nie tuhan bagi bukan untuk tgk je, tapi kena lihat dalam2.
diam skejap member aku 2, lepas 2 die kate. maybe sebab 2 manusia selalu buat pilihan yang salah. sebab manusia hanya memandang tapi x melihat. aku setuju ngan die. pada aku manusia selalu buat pilihan yang salah, lebih2 lagi peringkat umur macam aku nie. tapi salah pilih 2 memberi pengajaran cume manusia je yang selalunye xmau belajar. biase la suruh pegi skolah, kite ponteng ye tak? =D
p/s biar buat salah, tapi jgn buat org rase bersalah.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

things that stayed forever

well, how should i start. from da pass few weeks. i've been spending time wif myself (not alone). what i mean is, i kinda boring actually. nevermind. da reason is becouse. i've made a choiche =D. i'm throwing away something that has been a very important things for me. its about time. realy. and after that its like there is a big hole inside me. one of da main point of i'm living in this beautiful world today. has gone. i dont know. its realy hard 2 describe. everything is like a mess. theres nothing that i can control anymore. just letting everything runs by itself. day by day. i'm lost yet i think i know da way i'm headed. fuhh. doing thing like i use too. pretending like nothing happen. gile ah. i smile (i'm a person with a sweet smile, trust me hahaha) having fun. studying. working. everything..but it still cannot fill in the hole. besar betul lubang tu kan, thanks to all that been there for me. fren that entertain. co-workers..thanks for all da advise. but somehow i realize something. da hole never could be fill becouse. there was nvr a hole in da 1st place. because the truth is, i never empthy it. it was always there wif me. i nvr throw it away. i cant't. it stucks...u nvr knew when is da time u realy need something..this is how i feel..hmm my conclusion is. keep what u already have and dont ever try 2 forget things. what have u put inside your heart will always stayed there. so live with it. i'm living with my. this kind of feeling makes me remember a piece of lyrics in 'hotel california' song..

'u can always check out, but u can never Leave....'

p/s : try to leave a few time, but i keep coming back